Big Changes

The last few months have been a blur. Hence why neither Roland nor I have been blogging (not that Roland ever does). When we decided to start this blog it was to let others read about what has been going on in our little family. So, here it goes. We are moving to 100 Mile House, BC. Never heard of it? Well neither had I until I met Roland. It is a little town of about 10,000 people in the Cariboo region of BC. Yep, it's official I am moving to a town of 10,000 people! Every time I tell someone where we are moving the usual response is "oh" with a disgusted facial expression and tone of voice. But, I absolutely love it there. It is so beautiful. But, it will definitely be an adjustment since I am used to city living and 100 Mile doesn't even have a Walmart! Roland had to leave before Joseph and I to find a job and a place for us to live. He left almost two weeks ago and it has been a huge adjustment and not one I am a fan of at all. I have a new appreciation for single mothers. Not that I am comparing my month without my husband to the difficulties of raising a child alone by any means. I find myself getting more easily frustrated with Joseph and I feel really bad, but it is so hard when I don't get a break at all and am doing all the parenting on my own. I have a new appreciation for my husband and the amazing father that he is. I love him so much and am so blessed to have such an amazing man as my husband. Joseph is also really blessed with a father who is so involved and loving towards him.
In the past few months our son has really grown into his personality. He is a happy smiley baby who loves to cuddle and play. He has started being really mischievous as well. Getting into everything within arms reach and he can't even crawl yet! He is rolling everywhere to get where he wants to go. He is really missing his daddy right now and I can tell because he is a lot fussier than normal. Not to mention I am pretty sure his teeth are coming in. I am so proud of Josephs accomplishments and of him. I love him so much and am so excited for his life. I am trying to enjoy each stage since he is growing up so fast. I can't believe he is already seven months old!

One of his first times in his Jolly Jumper

The Joys of Motherhood

So, the last couple weeks my angel baby who had slept through the night from a month old has decided that he does not remember how. He cannot even make it four hours anymore. I thought the days of waking up every two hours were behind me until we decide to have our next baby. Last night Joseph was up 6 times. SIX! He hasn't been up that many times since the first few days we brought him home. I thought I was going to die this morning when he decided it was time to wake up. We moved him into his own room this week thinking that it might help him sleep better but that is just not the case. 
I have no idea what to do to get him sleeping through again but I am on a quest to find something! Does anyone have any tips? Anything would be much appreciated.
Even though he is killing me with his new sleeping habits he makes up for it with how adorable he is and how much he is learning. He just recently started making "razzes" and it makes me laugh every time. He also started on rice pablum a couple days ago ( I did this in hope he would sleep better but nope it is not working). He is becoming so interactive and has the cutest little laugh. He is extremely ticklish on his tummy neck and up his back and when you tickle him he gets so squirmy. He has been able to sit up leaning on his hands and is getting better at that by the day. I feel so blessed every day to be able to watch him change and grow, which by the way, is happening WAY too fast its like where has my little tiny baby gone? I can't believe he is already 4 months old and 17 almost 18 pounds! 
Chels

Nothing in Life is Final

Lately in my life I have been realizing that the people who you thought would always be there wont be. I guess this is a learning experience that all must go through as they graduate to adulthood but, it is not an easy one. I think it is sad that all of a sudden someone who most of your teenage memories include (good and bad) isn't really a part of your life anymore. This for me has been a hard pill to swallow. 
At the moment I am sitting here and I miss this person, even though I really shouldn't be because honestly, they haven't given me any reasons to. And, it isn't like they care about me one bit. So, why do I care so much? 
We made all these promises to each other as kids as we fantasized about how our lives would be when we grew up and got married and had babies, and now that I have done those things, where are those promises? Now, I am not so naive to think that all of those things would come to fruition but as I am going through all of these changes I miss this childhood friend who promised as a young girl to always stick by my side. I'm not going to say that I have been the perfect friend because I haven't. I haven't always been there and I haven't always been supportive but who is at that age? I never thought I would be missing out on one of the biggest days of her life. It breaks my heart but, I guess that is what happens in life...heartbreak. 
I look at Roland and he is ten years older than me and barely friends with anyone he was friends with at my age. That scares me. I hate losing friends and I have a really hard time making new ones, which by the way was never a problem in my youth. I don't want to lose my closest friends and I pray that I don't. As we make those promises to each other to always be there, I hope that we have created a bond where that is possible. I hope I am now a friend who can make good on that promise. I don't want to have to look through pictures ten years from now and think "I wonder what happened to them". 
I love all of you 
Chels